December 2009
It's never enough.
As much as I hang out with Raymond, it barely seems enough. When he goes out with his group, I can’t help but feel a pinch of jealousy. It’s been on my mind for a long time, and searching throughout my brain, I have finally found an answer.
I feel left out.
It seems as if Raymond’s group adds new faces…and I am not one of them. I don’t want to complain, and...
You’re so full of SHIT. Fuck you.
Why is it that I’m so careful about hurting his feelings and he’s so blunt and hurtful to me ? I do care about him, and he does love me more than he loves me, but I’m always so careful as to how much I hurt him. I feel like I care about him more than he cares about me.
Because something always brings me back to you…it never takes too long.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nBiGrHc0Xy4
Something always brings me back to you. It never takes too long. No matter what I say or do I’ll still feel you here ‘til the moment I’m gone. You hold me without touch. You keep me without chains. I never wanted anything so much than to drown in your...
To melt an icy heart.
To melt an icy heart hurt from jealousy, abandonment, and even worse…to clear a mind from a bad day or what not, you must go to the Dog Adoption at Downtown LA at Pan Pacific Park.
Here, you can see dogs. Not just any dogs, but dogs from Baldwin Park Animal Shelter. Baldwin Park Animal Shelter is inexplicable. Horrible and saddening are just two words that come to mind, but really, the...
There’s a burning question in my heart that I don’t want to answer.
How you make me wonder.
How you make me think…but how you make me feel. It’s safe to say that you have become a mere memory, but it’s not like you’re not a part of my feelings or a part of my life. I do notice you, but it’s just a moment. It’s not something of great significance because you have stopped being a significance in my life. I have met greater and better people. I appreciate...
In a fleeting second, our eyes, they meet. A mere second of our eyes’ connection, a thousand memories play in my head. This was the closest I’ve ever been to you for a long while. I turned my head away yet again. If you want to know the truth, I have forgiven you, but the things that you have done to me…I will never forget. & although I don’t hate you anymore,...
I don't like myself.
I hate myself sometimes, I swear.
I forgot we had a Best Buddies cabinet meeting. It’s my first year in cabinet and I’m making such a bad impression. Why am I so absent-minded…why ? I hate my procrastination and how I am. I hate it. I said I was going to better myself…when has that started happening ? I don’t know if I kept my promise. I can’t even...